January 01, 2014
That's right! The new year has chronologically commenced. This post came naturally to me because the past year has been one of the most eventful years of my 21 years of existence, and not just in terms of the material happenings around me. A mental chaos shadowed the very beginning of the year.
I can still feel that sense of completeness that comes with getting a job after college and getting into a relationship with the Mr. Right (sorry about the cliched term). That beautiful feeling was beyond words. Obviously, I did not see what was coming.
Like most other people, I had the general suspicion about 2013. I knew that whatever happened, it could always be blamed on the unlucky number 13. But instead, everything that happened, taught me more than any other time frame has.
My job and relationship, both failed the test of time miserably. Time was of essence and my mind, impatient. How was I supposed to define my destiny when my previous decisions proved to be blunders? How was I supposed to pick up the pieces of my life and trust my gut feelings all over again, after facing a disastrous health problem (which was fatal to my relationship)?
What doesn't kill you make you stronger, but it certainly leaves you bitter. Much bitter than you ever thought you could be. By the time I bagged my next job, I had changed, a great deal as a person. The new writing job has taught me a great deal about myself. Again, I would like to give some credit to the year 2013 which brought immense opportunities for self-discovery with itself. I may be confused about the form and style of writing that I wish to pursue, but the one thing I never doubted is the sense of liberation I get from writing.
Now, I am a step ahead of the naive girl that I was known to be. I have finally managed to let go off of my small-town inhibitions, which were keeping me from real life experiences. The transformation continues to cause turmoil in my head some times, and leaves me wondering, if it was really worth it? The change in my personality has posed several questions for me and for every other writer from a land of the illiterate people. The Diaspora continues to affect my approach towards life.
A constant Hope remains though. It is that angelic virtue which lets me believe that all the answers that 2013 posed, shall be answered and be attended to, in 2014.
Here's to the daily revelations that life causes and more importantly, our ability to grasp each one in given time.
And, on that positive note, I also wish to resolve that I will try to come up with a post every day in the year, that shall include that one thing that catches my fancy every day and is worthy of note. Happy New year to one and all. :)
That's right! The new year has chronologically commenced. This post came naturally to me because the past year has been one of the most eventful years of my 21 years of existence, and not just in terms of the material happenings around me. A mental chaos shadowed the very beginning of the year.
I can still feel that sense of completeness that comes with getting a job after college and getting into a relationship with the Mr. Right (sorry about the cliched term). That beautiful feeling was beyond words. Obviously, I did not see what was coming.
Like most other people, I had the general suspicion about 2013. I knew that whatever happened, it could always be blamed on the unlucky number 13. But instead, everything that happened, taught me more than any other time frame has.
My job and relationship, both failed the test of time miserably. Time was of essence and my mind, impatient. How was I supposed to define my destiny when my previous decisions proved to be blunders? How was I supposed to pick up the pieces of my life and trust my gut feelings all over again, after facing a disastrous health problem (which was fatal to my relationship)?
What doesn't kill you make you stronger, but it certainly leaves you bitter. Much bitter than you ever thought you could be. By the time I bagged my next job, I had changed, a great deal as a person. The new writing job has taught me a great deal about myself. Again, I would like to give some credit to the year 2013 which brought immense opportunities for self-discovery with itself. I may be confused about the form and style of writing that I wish to pursue, but the one thing I never doubted is the sense of liberation I get from writing.
Now, I am a step ahead of the naive girl that I was known to be. I have finally managed to let go off of my small-town inhibitions, which were keeping me from real life experiences. The transformation continues to cause turmoil in my head some times, and leaves me wondering, if it was really worth it? The change in my personality has posed several questions for me and for every other writer from a land of the illiterate people. The Diaspora continues to affect my approach towards life.
A constant Hope remains though. It is that angelic virtue which lets me believe that all the answers that 2013 posed, shall be answered and be attended to, in 2014.
Here's to the daily revelations that life causes and more importantly, our ability to grasp each one in given time.
And, on that positive note, I also wish to resolve that I will try to come up with a post every day in the year, that shall include that one thing that catches my fancy every day and is worthy of note. Happy New year to one and all. :)
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